somehow i could not ever completely let out in words how i felt. i have been waiting for some words to form in my mouth through my mind, but no words will ever come. i found this though on thoughtcatalogue and thank goodness i did, it is beautiful and melancholy.
a few extracts from On Being Brave Enough To Start Again by Kat George;
"...it’s the promise you make to yourself that you’ll never be heartbroken again.