November 2, 2012

wanderer.










on a phone booth in the city!










my week in photographs! :)

"Everybody knows they’re going to die, but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently,’ Morrie said. ‘So we kid ourselves about death,’ I (Mitch) said. ‘Yes, but there’s a better approach. To know you’re going to die and be prepared for it at any time. That’s better. That way you can be actually be more involved in your life while you’re living. . . Every day, have a little bird on your shoulder that asks, ‘Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?... The truth is, Mitch, once you learn how to die, you learn how to live… Most of us walk around as if we’re sleepwalking. We really don’t experience the world fully because we’re half asleep, doing things we automatically think we have to do… Learn how to die, and you learn how to live.’"
—Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
(something a lecturer presented on his last lecture.)

now that this year is coming to an end and i'll be leaving college, i've begun to think about what i'd do in university. and frankly, i have no idea because i'm too afraid to even think about it. i'm afraid i'd succumb into studying what others would or study something that'd guarantee me a job once i graduate eventhough it's not my passion at all. i'm afraid of making a decision that'd change who i am and my view on life. i'm so afraid that i'd forget how to live because i conformed and be just another person who thinks of money, money, money and petty little things that i don't think of now. most of all, i think i'm just afraid of losing sight of my unquenchable passion for beauty in a world that overlooks it. i just want to stay on my path.

it is such a struggle to be a realist and a dreamer and an optimist, all at once and i don't know where i'll be going in life.

5 comments:

Dilan Dilir said...

lovely photos :)

kimi said...

I am in the same position as you, except that I spent four years in a university degree first to get to this point and decide what I really want in life!

I encourage you to follow your heart, chase your dreams and be the beautiful person that you are!

xxxx

p.s. love the b+w cloud photo - incredible!

Macha said...

You should definitely listen to kimi, that is to say : to your heart!
I know exactly what you mean. After a quite bad year spent searching for a good job, which I didn't find, and wondering what to do with my life, I decided to go back to the university. I hope it will help me find the job of my dreams in the end, but I know it won't be easy.
Some of my friends preferred to change field for one where they are sure to find a job, but will they be happy?
Anyways I hope you'll manage to make the best decision, I am sure you will :)
xx

Hanna said...

Oh, yes, the ever present question... I think maybe a compromise to begin with is good (and then it's possible to move further in either direction, but preferably in the direction of the dreams!)
Either:
1. Find a way to make a living out of your passions, this might be shaky at first and might also involve a lot of compromise (commercialism>creativity) but might be worth it!
or
2. Combine your passion WITH a more "sensible" part-time/full-time job (and thus maybe study for this job in uni) that brings in enough money for basic survival/a decent life (depending on preferences).

At least, these are the choices I'm thinking about, forever and ever ... :) But you know, I started out studying medicine and now I'm studying creative writing (and have never been this happy before) so it's possible to change your mind as well. Though, I will continue to study medicine next year, I think, and will hopefully, in three years, be able to live accoring to 2), that is work as a doctor (part-time preferably) to make enough money to survive and spend ALL my free time writing :)
Do NOT be afraid to follow your dreams! some way it will work out. truly. it's totally worth it. we only have one life after all.
lots of love, as usual :)

Janice said...

I couldn't have said the last sentence any better. Best of luck, Tasha! Follow your dreams and do what makes you happy! I believe that if you really love something and set your heart on it, you'll succeed. I hope this is true :)