white lightning.

in the (paraphrased) words of one Blair Waldorf, destiny is a stupid excuse for losers who wait for things to happen instead of making them happen. similarly, FDR once said that to want isn't sufficient enough, you've got to ask yourself what you are going to do to get what you want. all that is well and dandy and i (think) i might have have the moxie to go for what i want but what scares me most is not the process of getting it, it's the thought of what will happen after, the thought of failure and/or rejection. if all of it fails i'd probably go numb again. being numb is good but it's a little too safe for my taste and sometimes being numb takes a toll on you and strikes you how much you fear everything.


but then what if you never got the chance to do what it is you want to do? i fear regret most of all.

let me come home

(self-portraits)

today, I met a lovely lovely girl, Isabelle and went on adventures and had delicious food. good Friday!

also, some words that i fell in love with (but do not exist in the English language)

Waldeinsamkeit (German): the feeling of being alone in the woods

Meraki (Greek): doing something with soul, creativity, or love

Ya’aburnee (Arabic): both morbid and beautiful at once, this incantatory word means “You bury me,” a declaration of one’s hope that they’ll die before another person because of how difficult it would be to live without them.

Forelsket (Norwegian): the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love.

we are the reckless, we are the wild youth.

my new cousin, Elisha. :)

my bunny day.

i miss so many things, like afternoon naps and sleeping while it's raining and familiar routines and feeling safe.

i think what i need is a safe haven and an endless stream of love and one right person. also, lots of photo adventures to get the passion pumping through my veins again because unhealthy distractions have been consuming me far too much than they should have been.

fingers crossed!

xxxx

I've never loved one like you

me.

i love seeing people from everywhere

a photograph of my uncle, photographing

the Twin Towers, gems of our city

purple

hehe i just loved her outfit!

i apologize for being absent from blogging for so long. (time has made a fool out of me, obviously) i have more photographs to show you very very soon!

i hope you all have been well and happy and i'm sending all my love xxxx

+a poem from this book that i borrowed from the library;

Come. And be my baby.

The highway is full of big cars

going nowhere fast

And folks is smoking anything that’ll burn

Some people wrap their lives around a cocktail glass

And you sit wondering

where you’re going to turn

I got it.

Come. And be my baby.

Some prophets say the world is gonna end tomorrow

But others say we’ve got a week or two

The paper is full of every kind of blooming horror

And you sit wondering

What you’re gonna do.

I got it.

Come. And be my baby.

come, and be my baby indeed.