(terrible out-of-focus photo of them but i love it)
i had one of the best nights tonight, one of the best that i've had in a long, long time! i had a night out with some of my high school friends, who, i (sadly) don't see very much of anymore because we are scattered all over, with some attending university overseas and whatnot.
we spent an hour packed in the car getting to Ikea because of the crazy rush hour traffic but we had so much fun and hilarious moments (too many for one hour), it felt like it flew past so quickly. we ate, explored, ran around and trawled around stores. the scents of stolen spritzes of perfumes from Victoria's Secret mingling with that of the air around us, conversation consumed us and laughter spilling from us. we walked all over in the bookstore looking through almost all the genre sections, giggled at funny titles, wrinkled our noses at overpriced books and played with the music box. my hands and fingers were sticky from ice-cream and sweet things and the humid night air. we laughed so much (probably far too loudly but who really cares when you're having fun with friends), did silly things and had one of us trolley-ride in the carpark. my cheeks, throat and stomach ached from talk and laughter and i thought to myself that my heart couldn't contain anymore contentment and happiness. the humid, mossy-scented night air that had made our hair so windswept and messy was disturbed only slightly by our voices, hollering hello's and goodnight's to strangers and quite terrible singing. it felt like we had eaten so much and i'm not sure whether it's food that has filled our stomachs or the fullness from laughing and being so happy.
right now i'm sitting in bed typing this and feeling so tired and full (but so happy) and still giddy from the leftover happy high. i'm glad that at one point tonight i realized the importance of feeling happy for now, for the time we still have to be us and together before the inevitable parting that we all dread and know is looming. the pessimist in me couldn't help peeking out and wondering if (but at the same time knowing that) more fun nights like this will come for me in the future, but it will be a different kind of fun with different friends in a different place; fun with friends you love is incomparable. these are friends who have known me since i was a child, young and naive in school, and know me now (still young and naive) as the person that i am growing and blossoming into.
"There is a certain part of all of us that lives outside of time. Perhaps we become aware of our age only at exceptional moments and most of the time we are ageless."
"Sure, everything is ending ... but not yet."
-"A Visit from the Goon Squad" by Jennifer Egan
have a great weekend, all of you xxx