holocene.

thus far in life, there has been moments when reality and my expectations have crossed paths and that is when i feel most alive. i talked to a great friend of mine and we talked about leaving school and how we both felt about it and growing up and life and how life can make us feel so much at once. also, how our mind plays tricks on us we never know about and feeling nostalgic for something we've never felt nor experienced. i know i will miss so much, my high school friends and no more spending everyday with them and no more sharing everything. we have all grown up together and consequently grown on each other.

the rain today suits how i feel, i want to just snuggle up in bed and watch Harry Potter (which makes me feel better and makes me forget even for just awhile) and for this month to be over with in an instant.

all my love x

impossible thoughts.

if there really is one for one of all of us, how can i travel the whole world to find mine? it's an almost impossible feat and i wonder where that person might be, i imagine myself being a giant and looking in far corners of the world, searching. and so i lead myself to un-believe in such things as soulmates. and yet there's the little longing of wanting to believe in it, in the highest hopes that maybe the truth behind the myth exists and i will so, start to search or maybe not (maybe he could just be right here) and be so lucky to find him.

for now, those thoughts are mere dreams of no real value, for i have so many other, more exciting plans for my near future. but i believe i am almost certain that a day will come when i question if there is more to life than accomplishments and in fact, we are all here to live more closely, more fully with one other person (for i am neither a Summer nor a Tom, i believe more than Summer and trust less than Tom)