monochrome madness! (i have been loving it so much lately)
i have come to realize that eventually, the only way i could be ever happy is to be happy for others. it instills a calm peace in my heart. selflessness is quintessential sometimes and not selfishness (as it is our human nature to be). to be happy for others makes me want happiness for myself, most especially if the person you're happy for isn't yours to be happy with.
"... from the beginning of time,
in childhood, I thought
that pain meant
I was not loved.
It meant I loved."
— an excerpt from "First Memory" by Louise Glück