lost and then found again.

me by Sue Lyn

as promised, here are photographs of Sue Lyn! it was our very first time meeting each other but we got along so well, it was so lovely getting to know her. :) she was even more gorgeous in person and she has such a fun, quirky, outgoing personality! not to mention she was so easy and fun to work with and such a natural in front of the camera :) (wish i was too). there were a few tumbles because of the dampness left by the rain in the moss and rocks but she was such a trooper! <3 p="p">

we went to one of the most beautiful parks i've ever been to, where there were bright orange moss (like carpet) on the grandfather trees and rocks and sunshine spilled through the leaves and branches, leaving speckles everywhere. there was also a pretty, cooling little stream where we dipped our feet in under the hot, sweltering sun. it was a day well spent! :)

“i will learn how to love a person and then i will teach you and then we will know”

seen from a great enough distance i cannot be seen

i feel this as an extremely distinct sensation

of feeling like shit; the effect of small children

is that they use declarative sentences and then look at your face

with an expression that says, ‘you will never do enough

for the people you love’; i can feel the universe expanding

and it feels like no one is trying hard enough

the effect of this is an extremely shitty sensation

of being the only person alive; i have been alone for a very long time

it will take an extreme person to make me feel less alone

the effect of being alone for a very long time

is that i have been thinking very hard and learning

about mortality, loneliness, people, society, and love; i am afraid

that i am not learning fast enough; i can feel the universe expanding

and it feels like no one has ever tried hard enough; when i cried in your room

it was the effect of an extremely distinct sensation that ‘i am the only person

alive,’ ‘i have not learned enough,’ and ‘i can feel the universe expanding

and making things be further apart

and it feels like a declarative sentence

whose message is that we must try harder’

by Tao Lin

a poem that clung to my mind and drew me closer to it (i'm saving this one). consider this an attempt at self-preservation.

(p.s. i've yet to finish the editing of the photos from my shoot with Sue Lyn! they will be up in my next post, promise!)

week of friends.

 those eyes :3

 we were at the fun fair, but not quite

we left about 5 minutes after arriving there because there was literally nobody there (except for those who work there) and the thought of a near-empty fun fair scared us

 chocolate torte!

 my first time having some profiteroles!

 (indeed i would)

 my gorgeous friend whom i've not seen in 3 years!

 we had brunch at a beautiful new restaurant called Wondermama!

 Malayan Eggs Benedict

 beef bacon & chocolate icecream

this past week has been so much fun! :) i met with my best friends, long lost friends, new friends and musician friends. it has been so tiring but i am feeling the happiest i've ever been in a long while! i imagine this is what the holidays should truly feel like; adventures, fun, thrills and love.

also, i had a shoot with the lovely and beautiful Sue Lyn of TWIST CHIC a couple of days ago! i was so glad to finally be able to meet her after wanting to for so long now. so keep your eyes peeled for my next post featuring the photos from our shoot! ;)

xxx

beth.

i had a ballerina-themed shoot today with my lovely, pretty friend, Michelle! :)

the three of us spent an hour or two together in the hotel near our homes, wandering and thinking up ideas for each shot and it felt like we were still ten, eleven and twelve. :)

“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”

-Friedrich Nietzche